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Wow. It's been a minute y'all!

Seriously.

I apologize to my readers, as well as myself, for not keeping up on my blog. Perhaps it is the reason I've been going mental lately. An outlet to channel and expel my thoughts, feelings, rage, etc. is needed. And this blog is that channel. This entry probably won't be too heavy. But it's better than nothing I suppose. And I usually get riled up/excited while/after writing a blog!

So...one whole fricking month has elapsed since I quit smoking. Boo yeah! Monday was 4 weeks...so today makes it about 31 days. Like a full MONTH! I can't even believe it. I don't even care about my patches anymore. I forgot to wear one yesterday, and purposely forgot again today. The only time I have trouble is when I see someone smoking. Then I smell it. UGH! Funk that!

Last Friday, while rockin' pretty hard, a lot of people were smoking around me. At first, I had a little argument with myself inside my head. Arguing for and against lighting one up. While debating, I realized EWW! This shit is gross! And I didn't have one! :D

But I am a bit worried about Vegas. The temptation to blast a Marlie Marl...man it's gonna be tough. But I think I can do it. I've been doing awesome. And on the off chance I should fail, well...I will stop again immediately. It'd just be a bump in the road. But one I'd rather avoid. Because I'm a very anal person, and even if I just had a drag, I'd feel like I have to start all over again. Gonna be tough when drinking though...

As for beefcaking? Well the good news is, I did put on a few pounds (last time I checked). I really need to buy a scale. It's pretty tough to track results. Bad news is, I've kinda fallen off on the shakes and stuff. At least, I'm not having 2/day like I should be. One here and there...however, it's so close to my trip, that I'm gonna say eff it, and when I get back, I'll be taking it much more seriously. Especially with spring and such coming up. I haven't been bowflexing at all. BUT - I have been doing some fitness exercises at home myself. And although I've been slacking over all, improvements are still there. I can do more and more situps/pushups then I thought I would be able to in such a short time.

I'm definitely noticing some muscle definition appearing in my arms, shoulders, chest, stomach, etc. I'm pretty pumped! Because my effort has been half assed at best, and I'm already seeing improvement. Wait til I start hammering those shakes down and hitting the gym full torque! God forbid I get a hold of some HgH! I'll be a beast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BEEFCAAAAAAAAAKE! Haha!

Another reason I haven't been hittin' this blog lately...well...I haven't done anything worth writing about! I haven't played any poker since my huge drop session/quick weekend session in Calgary. Just pissed around a bit online with some sit 'n go's and such, but nothing worth talking about. I need to play some this weekend to get primed up for Vegas!

Man am I getting excited about Vegas!! Lately, I was almost feeling apprehensive about it. Something was bothering me about this trip...I have a pretty good idea where these feelings were coming from. But I've dealt with it mentally. This bullshit derives from my inabilities to cope with stress or situations that are beyond my control. But eff that. Reggie and I are gonna be sippin' on some Ole' E, walkin' down the strip, not givin' a mothafuck! It's gonna be so sweet! Poker, booze, shopping, food, bit...errr, yeah... :D Good times ahead! I can't wait!

Now I just have to deal with all my shit before I leave! I need to finish cleaning up my house, and have all my shit together. Or I won't even be able to sleep! I'm worried about leaving my babies...I always miss them. But at least this time, someone will be there for them everyday. At least, he better be!

One more thing...Detroit what?!?! 6 in a row! Boo yeah! After a hideous winless-in-7-games stretch, we are back on track. God I love Hossa...almost as much as Datsyuk! So ghey...but I can't help it! They are so deadly!!!!!!!!!

Anyways, I'm sure I'll have more to write about at some point in the next couple days. But I should probably get to bed.

I don't wanna talk about wars between nations.
Not right now

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