Feel Good Inc.

K, it's been a while since my trip and I've been slackin' big time. I apologize. But, if you don't like it, I don't really care. Cuz I write for me! Not you! (I'm kidding, I appreciate if you read it)

So anyways, the details of the trip are becoming fuzzier.

Basically, the rest of the trip was spent playing more poker, eating, and a lot of debauchery, most of which cannot be repeated. You had to be there.

I ended up another $2000+ or so playing 1/2 NL and 2/5 NL, so overall, I think I was up a bit over 5K for the trip! Yay! I did do a fair bit of spending, but still came home well ahead. That's great success IMO!

On the Wednesday of the trip, day after the tournament, I forget what was done during the day. But I decided, what the heck. Let's get married! So after a long drawn out, drunken session at the Bellagio, I proposed to my BFFL Tiff in the poker room. Good times, very entertaining for all! I carried my bride to be out to a chorus of applause from the gallery! :) Other events that evening included playing poker with the short chubby man in the red shirt Reggie affectionately dubbed 'Kool Aid'. He stacked off sooooo many times LOL. Awesome times.

Next day, we went shopping, and I dropped a few C notes at my favorite Zoo York store! :) Reginald and I ate some sushi...it was my first time eating anything besides the typical 3 common pieces you find everywhere. Very interesting to say the least!

Friday night, well, you just had to be there...very scary and very fun times. :) It was quite a memorable evening though. Saturday, being the last day/night there, I foolishly stayed up all night playing poker, getting drunk, etc. It turned out to be a good idea, because around 8 or 9 in the morning, this drunken redneck just started handing me his money. +1200, thank you. :)

Then I fell asleep while eating the buffet, shortly after checking out. 2 nights of no sleep, a hang over and RARE prime rib do not mix. I had a short power nap in Kamil/Ketan's room and off to the airport. Paul and I said our tearful goodbyes to Tifferz after a quick meal, and we were back to desolation. Freezing temperatures, snow, and no crazy tourists to give you their money. :(

Since I've been back, in only a handful of sessions, I've managed to dump about $1800 back into the Red Deer casino. Much of it is due to bad/impatient play. But to be fair, I got my money in ahead plenty of times and took some terrible beats. Probably about 70/30 in bad beats/bad play. Oh well, I'm on a bit of a hiatus from live poker and I'll be recharged and ready to get it back soon.

Online, I've just been funneling my money back into Jokerstars. Fuck I hate that place. I should really just pull my money off. It's horrendous how bad I run and play there.

Enough about poker. So yeah...about beefcake, quitting smoking...

I decided, shortly before the trip to not worry too much about shakes, etc. I've since fallen out of my regime and have yet to get back into it heavy. Sigh...but I promise I will. At the latest, I will be hardcore again by May. I also gave in, within about 3 hours of being there, and smoked while in Vegas. I decided why bother fighting it the whole time? It was probably a good idea in retrospect, because I would have had no way to vent/take breaks, and probably would not have had as much success. Once I got back, I stayed off the darts a good week or so. But eventually...I caved. And failed. :(

I also promise, that I will get back onto that wagon soon, and stick with it. It's bullshit that I gave in so easily. Stress has been mounting again though, and I have some serious decision-making and changes I need to make. Enough fucking around. Once I get everything figured out, I will have a clear mind, a fresh slate, and a positive attitude. And I will take over the fucking world.

More soon...

P.S. I often name my entries after songs, lyrics, random bull shit. I'll also from time to time close with such. It might just be a reflection of my mood...or perhaps direct correlation to events in my life. Or maybe just a song I've been listening to a lot. Always a mystery!

"My, what a good day for a walk outside
I'd like to get to know you a little better, baby
God knows that I really tried"