Well.
Two days in a row now, I have forgotten my nicoderm patch! And remembered each time as soon as I hit the highway (obv not wishing to turn back). Both times, I panicked, thinking I would trick my brain into believing that to be a good enough reason to buy some smokes. But luckily, I told my brain to man the fuck up and not listen to my arsehole conscience. :)
So far so good. 17 days have now elapsed. 21 was in my opinion, the most vital milestone. Smooth sailing thus far, and hopefully nothing will set me off course.
Speaking of setting me off course, I got drunk by myself. What an awesome way of celebrating my birthday...sigh. I hate it here. Please someone randomly show up at my door and beg me to sell you my house for way more than it's worth! Since that's highly unlikely, I suppose I should do my best to get this place rented. Because depending on a worthless whore to pay for half of this place isn't going to last forever or much longer, even though said whore should be paying forever. Why should I have to be responsible for other people's fuck ups? Life is so unfair. But out of this despair, one day, something great will come of it.
It's also worth noting...I probably shouldn't talk to people when I'm drunk. Honesty is a good policy and I believe in telling the truth. But sometimes, timing takes precedence. Now I feel like an idiot. Sigh...I'm sighing a lot aren't I? Sigh...
Detroit keeps fucking losing. Idiots...
I haven't been exercising/working out as much as I should. It feels like by the time I'm done work and I sit down for five minutes, the day is over. How much more can I take? I honestly cannot believe I have been able to quit smoking under these conditions. Especially with forgetting my patch a couple times...an annoying accent used to make me relapse in past attempts.
This entry was pretty useless...just bitching and whining. I apologize. Hopefully soon, I'll have something exciting to write about. Or maybe I'll write a short story or some poetry. Who knows...
P.S. Fuck tha Police!
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Too bad I suck at poetry IMO. lol
ReplyDeleteThank you for comment that was soo very sweet of you! I feel so lucky to have such an amazing family, we all rock!!
ReplyDeleteI definitely think you should look into journalism, you would be awesome at it! As I am starting to realize there is no point in settling on a career path you aren't happy with!
I'm so proud of you for quitting smoking!! We are all behind you for support if you need it :)
xoxo
Thanks Kenard! :) Yes our family is second to none. We should make a reality show and all live in one big house...that would be sweet! Yeah I'm not sure where my path will lead...3 weeks and rocking w/ no smoking! :)
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